Friday, 25 October 2024

To be honest

 


It's nights like these, when my soul is so broken and torn

Tortured by the memories of your touch

Your kiss and especially your love.

It's night like these is when I wonder if you miss me just as much 

Maybe you don't

But secretly I sure do wish you would tell me that you did

We gave up on each other,

Not because we wanted to, 

But time ... it slipped away from us. 

We lost the moments we could have had... 

All our laughter and tears. 

We never choose this path but here we are.

 I am no longer able to send you a message. 

I won't be able to smile at our stupidity. 

Losing you is hard but living with the memories of our madness is even harder.... 

How am I to cope?

You knew me, more than I knew myself....
 
And i know i feel i don't know who i am without you

I find myself feeling guilty for not doing more....
 
Not making more time for us. 

No one knows or will ever understand the way we were.... 

My heart is bleeding and my soul is crying out.... 

I want to scream as I feel the pain inside me builds, 

Holding my stomach as there is nothing left for me to say.

Take it all away, I don't want this to hurt.....

As I sit in this silence, broken and torn apart.....

Words can't express the feelings in my heart



Thursday, 24 October 2024

The Feeling

My nerves are shot

I'm about to pass out

Any minute now

My body is trembling

Because its knows somethings wrong

A common sensation with this type of

Combination

The drugs, the alcohol, the stimulants

all wrapped into a big dimension

I feel as though tomorrow for me is an

Extremely slim possibility

But alas, god doesn't make it that easy

But dare i rather, not tempt the hands of fate

For thou misfortune has followed nevertheless

Grateful shall I be.

I am super intoxicated right now

I feel super sick 

Is this heaven or hell taking me 

I wonder 

Between the nebulous of my mind

I find the illusion of my zenith 





TAKE CARE 
LOVE MS. FOX 





So for explanation purposes I had lost access to this page and I have no idea what happened but somehow I got back in (yay me?!). Right now, more than ever I need this page , I have so many things that I want to express without the responsibility of being criticized by those around me with no solution. 

I doubt that anyone will be checking this page so I think I am safe for the time being. I will post more as soon as I get the chance (and yes I am a bit intoxicated but I GOT THIS!!) ADIOS