To be honest

 

It's nights like these, when my soul is so broken and torn

Tortured by the memories of your touch

Your kiss and especially your love.

It's night like these is when I wonder if you miss me just as much 

Maybe you don't

But secretly I sure do wish you would tell me that you did

We gave up on each other,

Not because we wanted to, 

But time ... it slipped away from us. 

We lost the moments we could have had... 

All our laughter and tears. 

We never choose this path but here we are.

 I am no longer able to send you a message. 

I won't be able to smile at our stupidity. 

Losing you is hard but living with the memories of our madness is even harder.... 

How am I to cope?

You knew me, more than I knew myself....

 

And i know i feel i don't know who i am without you

I find myself feeling guilty for not doing more....

 

Not making more time for us. 

No one knows or will ever understand the way we were.... 

My heart is bleeding and my soul is crying out.... 

I want to scream as I feel the pain inside me builds, 

Holding my stomach as there is nothing left for me to say.

Take it all away, I don't want this to hurt.....

As I sit in this silence, broken and torn apart.....

Words can't express the feelings in my heart

The Feeling

My nerves are shot

I'm about to pass out

Any minute now

My body is trembling

Because its knows somethings wrong

A common sensation with this type of

Combination

The drugs, the alcohol, the stimulants

all wrapped into a big dimension

I feel as though tomorrow for me is an

Extremely slim possibility

But alas, god doesn't make it that easy

But dare i rather, not tempt the hands of fate

For thou misfortune has followed nevertheless

Grateful shall I be.

I am super intoxicated right now

I feel super sick 

Is this heaven or hell taking me 

I wonder 

Between the nebulous of my mind

I find the illusion of my zenith 

TAKE CARE 

LOVE MS. FOX 

So for explanation purposes I had lost access to this page and I have no idea what happened but somehow I got back in (yay me?!). Right now, more than ever I need this page , I have so many things that I want to express without the responsibility of being criticized by those around me with no solution. 

I doubt that anyone will be checking this page so I think I am safe for the time being. I will post more as soon as I get the chance (and yes I am a bit intoxicated but I GOT THIS!!) ADIOS 

To the begining

So, How the heck does one write a blog?!..... TBH I have no idea but I am going to making an attempt. What is my aim and goal of getting this blog up and running you may ask,   just to push my descriptive writing skills,( LOL YEAH RIGHT)  honestly all my life I have been told I have a talent for writing creatively but I have been so much of what the previous generation view as a procrastinator that I used every justifiable excuse not write. I mean haven't we all been at that point or is it just me?. I could very well be wrong about all of this but hey only one way to find out.

Enough of this long boring, yadda yadda and let's get down to the nitty-gritty, I don't have a favourite anything, so if you are reading this blog in order to find that connection of social platforms.....Then you are reading down the wrongs pages. I do like things, a lot of things, like movies, food, adventure all that typical normal 0people stuff, unfortunately for you, I only do it because it seems that in order to actually fit into this society there is a box or mold that we are trying to fit in to even when we are trying extremely hard to be different.....YAWN..... I know

As the first post, I promise to commit to not be so mundane, Tell you what if you actually do read my blog and actually do comment, my next will be about whatever you comment I should blog about.

This is it, for now, going back to fade into this world of boredom and cliches

TAKE CARE
love Mrs Fox